I have to admit that when I first found out you existed
I loved you. I admired your beauty, your form.
You were nothing I ever experienced.
But as years went on,
I loathed you. I saw you as a dark place
but that wasn’t true at all.
The truth is, I abused you
used you as an emotional garbage can,
only spoke of sadness and defeat
out of my own curiosity of dark emotion
and not knowing how to present my own
But somehow for some reason,
you kept calling me back.
Eventually I came and
gained a whole new perspective.
I’m sorry for hating you. And now I realize
that without you, I wouldn’t know how
to express my feelings in a healthy manner
and see the beauty of love and happiness.
I do love you, now more than before
for you are my sanctuary.